What lies do we tell ourselves?
To preserve the order of our days
To pretend we can will away truth
To silence the voices we do not want to hear
To protect us from pain we suspect we cannot bear
What lies do we tell ourselves?
And in the telling pretend
That we care
But too much
That we are not the problem
And certainly not the solution
That it doesn’t matter
That we are just one person
Who has troubles enough
What lies finally reach the end of ourselves?
Restart the beating of a stone cold heart
Wake our minds from the numbing fog of weariness
Tear the rusty plates of excuses from our soul
And knock the breath of realization back into our lungs
Because lies serve us
until they don’t
They have a shelf life
And you can tell when a person
Is carrying a lie that is well past
Its expiration date
A lie is unappetizing at best
And slow poison at Worst
They are sneaky though,
Lies
Packaged well and clearance priced
We buy them
Thinking they’ll solve our ills
Or at least make us feel better
Than we are
What lies do we tell ourselves?
There are lies of omission
Protective lies
Lies born of greed, and ease and power
Lies of persuasion
Lies of hidden agendas and identities
Dangerous lies
The denial of truth
Well meaning lies
Lies give
And take away
Appear in a breath
Take on lives of their own
Convincing
To the desperate
And take more from those
missing pieces of their heart
I don’t always know a lie
Or catch why I told myself a particular one
it could stay awhile
I have had nagging suspicions
Yet questioned myself instead of a lie
Because of the lies I had been fed
And had consumed along with others
Or had mistakenly been prescribed
like a sour-sweet cough medicine
Or taught to sing like
An anthem or a hymn
Unthinking unknowing
But how does truth and real
Ever be believed
If we are
so many of us
Born of consumers
Consuming
And being consumed
By the lies we have lived
Worshipped
Become
If there ever was a time
For a hopeful ending to a story
For fairytales to be true
For platitudes to be more than they are
This feels a lot like the time
when we need a
Because
However
But, those are for a different hour
Because unlike lies
Truth does not mess around
It does not make things all better
It doesn’t hide ugly from you
Or placate
Or minimize
Or insult
Truth respects
Asks you to
do more
Be more
Look
Ask
Remember
Listen
Face
Tell
Accept
That you are just as capable of deceit
As any other one
And just as born of truth
As every other soul
That breathes
Inhales and exhales
The lies we tell ourselves
Hollie 10/17/17
Powerful and soooo many lines sticking with me! poetic truths …
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Thank you! I found it last night under my drafts and I thought maybe I’d cut and pasted someone poem bc I didn’t recognize it😂 then I saw that I’d dated it❤️
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Soul sister, I’ve missed you. This makes me think of one of the lies I’m currently believing about myself and one I think God is trying to uproot. Can we PLEASE collaborate soon? Pleaseee.
Love you. 🙋❤️😘
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Love you my friend❤️🙋🏻♀️writing is so anxiety provoking for me. The very thought of trying to string together words out of my thoughts and feelings this past year freezes me. But, last night I found this that I’d written in October- it helped me to remember that I can write when I can 😊collaboration would help jumpstart me! You are so kind and thoughtful❤️❤️
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Love you too! 😘🤗 I texted you something. 💕 I shall help you unfreeze from writing. You can do it! I believe in you. ❤️
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